| Location | Colorado Springs |
| Age | 30 years |
| Date of Birth | 14/04/1970 |
| Date of Death | 11/01/2001 |
| Visitors | 602 since 03/10/2009 |
| Creator |
In October, our son committed suicide: Not of the flesh, but of
the mind and soul.
Three months later, Travis was physically dead as well.
Four years after his death, Travis' remains were found in his father-in-laws basement. His father in law was going to move so he called his daughter and told her she had to get Travis' ashes out of his basement.
At that time she mailed his ashes to his friends because she had remarried just days after Travis' death and moved clear across the United States without letting any of us know where she and the children were.
A PERSONAL NOTE:
Travis died on a Thursday night. We were not told until the following Saturday night and the call came from Travis' father in law not the police.
When I asked him, "where is my son"? I was told, his wife was in the hospital with an unrelated illness"
Once again I asked, "Where is my son"? The reply was...
"I don't know, some morgue somewhere"!
One month after Travis died, we received the police report and coroner’s report. We found out, the Police did not take ANY fingerprints from his house. They did not tape off the house, which was now a CRIME SCENE.
However, one officer did make note in his report that Travis died with a shot gun "BALANCED" upside down on his chest, the casing was found UNDER his body as he lay on a small loveseat. It was noted: Travis' arms were not long enough to reach the trigger in the position the gun was found!
After receiving the police report in the mail; I called the police officer that was first on the scene and asked some questions about my son's death. He told me he could not discuss the details with me and I had to call the serious crimes/homicide division for more information.
I did call the homicide division and spoke with the sergeant in charge of my son's case. I asked him, how the shotgun casing got under Travis' body if the gun was "balanced" on his chest?
The sergeant said Travis must have moved.
So I asked, "if he moved... how could the gun remain "balanced" on his chest? Why didn't it fall over or off his body"? The sergeant said he didn't have all the answers to my questions at that time.
When my younger son Jon and I arrived at Travis' home, I had to crawl through the doggie door to gain access. I fit easily through the doggie door and I believe someone else could also crawl through that same doggie door, easily!
Once inside, we saw a eball size bloodstain on the carpet, 10 - 15 feet from where Travis' body was Reportedly found. Somone had tried to clean up the spot on the carpet but it was still very visible. Travis had been shot in the head and there was no exit wound. So how did a blood stain get so far away from where Travis was found?
The Corner's report stated, Travis had NO GUNSHOT RESIDUE ANYWHERE ON HIS BODY! Both his hands were on the barrel of the gun! Question is: If both his hands were on the barrel of the gun, then who pulled the trigger?
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Also, while inside Travis' home we looked around and found he had a fresh lunch packed in the fridge; a full tank of gas in his van and a cooler filled with soft drinks and melted ice.
He wrote notes to his estranged wife and children after his wife Deserted him. He also left an envelope with over $600 in it. The police found the letters and money and I think that was proof to them Travis committed suicide. His body was creamated at the cost of just $500.00. So basically, he paid for his own funeral arrangements with his own money found in the envelope for his estranged wife and kids.
But his estranged wife still stood up at the memorial service and asked for even more money!
Authorities labeled his death a suicide. But somethings just
don't add up.
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When I spoke to Travis on the telephone on Tuesday night, I knew he was stressed out and emotionally crushed. I was worried about him and I said, "Please don't do anything you'll be sorry for".
His reply was....
NO MOM, I HAVE KIDS!!!
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I have so many questions that will probably remain unanswered.
Also, To this day, I have been trying to get my son's ashes and bring him home. But his estranged wife refused to allow me or any member of Travis' family to have his remains. To this day, we have not been able to obtain his ashes and bring him home!
Why was she so hateful? Who knows!
If Travis was going to Commit suicide, why wouldn't he have left all his money in the envelope for his estranged wife and kids?
If he was going to Commit suicide, why did he even bother to go to work that day?
If he was going to commit suicide, why did he have cash money in his pocket, a full tank of gas in his van, a map to our house next to the drivers seat, a fresh lunch in the fridge, sodas in a cooler with ice?
On top of all my other questions, there is one more thing I wonder about.
Travis was completely dressed but his right shoe and sock were missing and on the bottom of his foot, writen in ball point ink were the words.."place tag here" with an arrow pointing to his great toe.
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After my son's death, I was so grief stricken I could hardly function.
I was angry, very angry!
My son lay dead and I wanted answers, How did this happen? When did things go so terribly wrong?
Travis' son was only seven years old when his Dad died.
His daughter was only four.
Two beautiful children who were now fatherless. I know Travis will always be with his children, protecting them and loving them each and every day of their lives. I only hope they will know how much their Dad loves them!
And I pray, both of his children will continue to hold their love and his memory in their hearts forever.
There can be many men who come into their lives who want to be called Daddy, but remember kids, THERE IS ONLY ONE REAL DADDY!
The Mountain I Must Climb
The path of life has taken me, down many a winding road
And when at times, I lost my way, you'd help me share the load
You picked me up each time I fell, and wiped away the pain
I never had to wonder, if there'd be sunshine after rain
I believed in new tomorrows, that would follow yesterday
That I'd always have that second chance, for things to go my way
But today you took my child lord, and surely you must see
The agony deep within my soul, as you take him away from me
Don't you see how much I love him, this surely cannot be true
For you have so many angels lord, that live in heaven with you
he was my drink of water, my heaven here on earth
And I held and rocked and loved him, from the moment of his birth
This time you gave me a mountain lord, I don't know if I can climb
For I truly thought I'd have him, until the end of time
Will he be your special angel lord, that you could not live without?
Your plan must have good reason, of that I have no doubt
Take my heart sweet Jesus, and hold it in your hands
I surrender my child as a gift to you, if this is your command
For your father is my god almighty, who also lost his child
That we'd be saved he gave us, his lamb so meek and mild
I place him gently in your care, as angels cry with me
Take care of my baby lord, through all eternity
Copyright � 2007 Margie Martinez
Your Birthday
Son, I love and miss you so much!
I made you a birthday cake like I do every year.
Thank you for sending me "signs" to let me know you are still around us.
Until we meet again my son, I send you all my love.
Mom
Missing you
Travis I love and miss you so much. It is hard for me to put into words but my heart aches without you.
I miss your smile you laugh your sense of humor and your loving ways.
I know that you are with Jesus now and for that I am thankful. No one will ever hurt you again. Thank you for sending us your private messages letting us know that you are still here with us. I know that you can hear me when I talk to you I just wish I could "hear" you when you talk to us.
Not long after your death I found a wonderful group of people who make guilts from your clothing. I sent in the shirts that I picked up from your bedroom and sent them in. I sleep with your quilt every night. I feel so close to you when I am covered with your quilt. On the night that I picked up your clothing little did I know that one day I could fold myself up with memories of you.
I never really wanted "memories" of you I never thought that you would be taken away to be with Jesus before me. I can hardly wait until the day when I can see you again and hold you close. You are so special to me Trav. I love you I keep a candle in the window for you every night and those candles will always burn for you until we meet again.
I miss you so much son please stay close and please watch over your children. They really need you now.
I love you!!!!
Love you
Hi sweetheart just me again. Today I visited with a couple of girls who also left this world too soon. I can't come to see you so I visit with them and ask them to find you. The two girls are beautiful sisters and for some reason I hope and pray that they will find you and send you my love.
Travis it has been a long time (on earth) since you left but to me.... the pain of loosing you never leaves. I have read every book I can find about "after death" but can't find a way to communicate with you. I know you are in Heaven and I know you are happy there with Jesus but my heart still aches for you. I don't think the pain will ever go away until the day we will be together again. I hope and pray it will not be too long.
George and I are considering moving out of state. Hopfully to be closer to you and your brother. Your sister is still miles away and it has been a long time since we have seen each other. So many miles! One day we will all be together again.
Time on earth seems so long. I bet it is beautiful there in Heaven and I am happy that you are with Jesus I just wish I was there with you.
Please watch over your children they need you now more than ever. Also please let us know when you are here with us. I want to talk to you so bad!
Until we meet again I love you with all my heart!!
Love Mom
Miss you
Good Morning Travis. Today is sweethearts day. George is being extra sweet today. He left the house at 5:30am just to go to the store and buy me some flowers candy and a card. How sweet he is.
I am thinking of you as I always do. I know you would have made this day special for your wife and kids. You have always been so thoughtful and kind. You are one in a million Travis and I will never let go. You mean the whole world to me Travis. I love you so very much. I miss you more than I can put in words. My heart aches for you. I miss your beautiful smile the way your eyes dance and the extra special way you treat those you love.
It has been hard to carry on without you here. No not just hard.... my heart breaks each and every day. I know that you are with Jesus now and there is not a better place to be. I guess I am just selfish... I can't let go.
Hope to see you again very soon.
Love Momma
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I am so sorry That would eat away at me also I hope you can find answers I would try to keep it going because I believe the person responsible should pay I am praying for you the the childrens mother are keeping his memory alive as I am trying to keep the memory alive in my grandson about his mom God bless you and your family
What a tragedy and by the sound of things a real cover up, you must fight for justice for your beloved son, Someone has got to listen to this story,.My thoughts and prayers are with you, your grandchildren and family who loved Travis xxx
What an absolute travesty of justice! Someone somewhere has to hear your voice. Please don't give up your fight until someone is brought to justice. RIP Travis
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